Saturday, April 22, 2006
the past...
hmm.. many good and bad things happen in the past..
but we always tend to be more focused on the bad rather than the good.. maybe it is inherent in every human being to have such a mindset.. to always think about the negative instead of the positive.. why is this so? some may say.. its due to the fear of being hurt again.. the fact that we haven't gotten over someone that was so significant in our lives.. or maybe.. it could be a genetic inclination inherent in the different genders.. as to how they handle the problem..
why am i talking about this?
well.. okie.. i have been reading a person's blog throughout last night.. due to my frustration about sth the individual commented.. i shan't say who that is.. but the more i read the person's blog.. the more i realise that maybe the person hasn't really gotten over his/her past. the lingering memories still haunts the person. why is that so? well.. as much as i would like to call it escapism.. but i highly doubt it.. the feelin i am getting is.. his/her feelings are still strong for the memory.. and what this person did to hurt another individual was a reckless and impulsive decision. and now the person is sorry about it.
well. okie. granted. come on.. i have offended many individuals in my life. and hell yeah i feel bad about talking bad.. or gossiping about the person. so obviously.. this person is probably facing the same thing. the fact that this person keeps reflecting about a particular incident that has haunted him/her throughout this period.. says something.
hmm.. maybe i am thinking too much.. but maybe i am just conforming to the common mental model of thinking of the worst possible outcome.. to prepare myself mentally.. of the fear of sth that happened to me in the past as well..
but the good things are keeping me mentally strong.. such as my boundless circle of friendship that has kept me mentally strong through their endless support.. to those people aka chris, andy, zinc, laona.. i salute you. thank you for always being there.. to support.. to cheer me up.. to help me think straight. also.. vin sun ali for always utting a smile on my face.. and keeping the happy go lucky hui intact.. baba sisters rock! =) thanks colin.. for the care and support throughout this exams. when i broke down u were there sacrificing ur revision time. thank you.
sUnsHiNe sMileZ ~nat~