...You will find that life is still worthwhile...
If you just smile
Sunday, May 28, 2006
hmm.. alot of things have happened throughout this week.. it started off with me feeling accomplished.. to feeling angry.. to feelng sad.. and to feeling a need to get back my life and to emotionally straighten things out..
okie.. so let's start off one by one.. well.. good news! i am now a qualified driver. haha. have been driving around for the past week. haha. went out with with colin for supper when i first started off.. and then i drove andy and christine for a shopping trip man! haha.. been practically driving everyday.. haha.. feeling more confident about driving.. =) definitely comfortable. haha. damn glad that my mum thinks that im a steady driver.. but i think andy would say otherwise. whaha.. always looking (well at least sometimes) paranoid when i stop at a traffic light or going through a hump. haha. but yeah.. he has been my navigator for the past week.. haha.. improved.. but still BAD! haha.. we nearly got lost when we were on our way to marina sq! haha. christine was like the "neutralizer" in the car.. haha.. a stressed out driver with a paranoid co driver. haha.. what a combination..
well.. another thingy that happened this week.. well. i broke up with colin.. haiz.. it was a really tensed situation.. but i really had to let it go. i couldnt go on lying to my dad.. lying to colin. and more so.. i couldnt go on staying in between trying to act as if nothing happened (being the person in between).. for most of you that know me well.. i can't lie for nuts. it shows when i do. hah. oh well.. too transparent for my own good.. at first it was very rough for both colin and i.. but now. we're friends.. and i am really thankful that we can still be friends. really. haiz.( colin.. thanks for making things easy for me to handle. know that you are hurting very much inside.. but will always be here if you need help to manage those feelings.. really thanks) just wanna thank my friends in hall for making things not awkward for the both of us too.. =) and for all your support and concern.
have been thinking about things. and so much has happened. suddenly i have an urge to get things back on track. to control my own life again. and to focus on my goals.. right now.. my life is still so uncertain.. i just feel that it isnt fair to drag anyone on board to travel this rough road and in the process hurt that person along the way.. gonna pull myself together..
gonna get my results soon. preparing for the worst. haha.
sUnsHiNe sMileZ ~nat~
~Shopping List~
1.new working clothes!!!
~getting ready for a new phase in life~
1.organize my messy room and attic
2.plan for goals to achieve in life
3.reflection on the past 22years..
4.to lose weight.. arghh
5.to donate my clothes to the needy
~Wish List~
1.to keep in touch with all the new friends i have made
mcs-->stc-->acjc-->ntu
business major
loves her family and friends
shopping and diet fanatic
motto:
Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it’s breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, you will get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You will see the sun come shining through for you
