sUnsHiNe sMiLez ~natalie~

Saturday, April 26, 2008

it's been a challenging three years..

three years of politics...

three years of stressful and demanding projects...

three years of painful planning of activities...

three years of arguments..

but aside the pain that we had to endure... we survived and we pulled through.. and was blessed with so many other beautiful things as we endured our way through..

three years of beautiful and long lasting friendships

three years of fun and laughter..

three years of hugs and being there for one another...

three years of mugging together late into the night..

most of all.. three years of unforgettable memories..

thank you to all who've made my life in ntu such a blessed and cherished one.. =)

sUnsHiNe sMileZ ~nat~

Monday, September 18, 2006

stepping back and looking at the big picture..

yes there are cock ups here and there.. but lets not get affected by the little nitty gritty things that might affect the vision and goals that you have set for yourself. there are many things to do. many goals to achieve. many ups and definitely many downs.

but looking at all these. what is the purpose? why did you get into the things you have gotten into? why are all these cock ups happening? why why why?

there is definitely a purpose in all the things that you do. and this could be a calling. to be strong and stay firm to what you believe in, and make you into a better person. learn from the mistakes made. and improve on it. all these cock ups are here to make you stronger to make you tougher in every sense of the word. politics was never sth that you wanted to get involved in. but think about it. it could be a stepping stone for you to achieve sth greater. it is to help you get tougher to face the real world. the world that is dark and nasty. not the fairy tale that you have lived in for the past 20 years of your life. that is a fantasy and a blessing.

things you do may benefit some and setback some. but whatever it is, it is for the greater good. people may support you and some may not. but be strong and keep your conscience clear. know what you are doing. and forecast its implications. weigh the costs and benefits. and do it. decisions made. mistakes made. consequences arise. live with it. dont be a coward. face up to it.

many things to achieve.

studies is that you need to excel in. you have failed your parents not too long ago. but this is your only chance to prove them wrong and prove to the whole family that you can live up to their expectations or be even better. you have got what it takes. pick yourself up and go. dont be 'idiotically' lazy. it is just an excuse. mind over matter that's what you have learnt. if you keep telling yourself that you are tired you will be tired and you WILL be a LOSER. so buck up, will you?

your position in this committee is to assist the committee to soar to greater heights. there have been many cock ups. and there will be many more to come. stay strong and even out these differences. you need to and you have to. you need to keep firm to the vision and what has been laid down by many past presidents. to come up with something new and refreshing is your goal. and to unite this jcrc as one. even out the cliques. unite them as one. that is YOUR job.

times may be difficult and tiring for you now. but it is just a phase. it will pass. you need to stay strong. keep firm. constantly pray for the people around you to be strong as well. push yourself beyond your limits. you will never know what you will achieve.

you can do it. i know you can. you DEFINITELY can.

attacking the problems with enthusiasm.

The Best is Yet to Be.

sUnsHiNe sMileZ ~nat~

Thursday, September 14, 2006

missing AC...

just came back from AC.. after interviewing or rather having a chit chat session with my grand junior class. man.. they are one great bunch of people. and seeing them so cheerful and carefree brings back many memories..

seeing my grand juniors.. has rejuvenated me in many ways in a short period of time. the spirit and drive i saw in them were the same as mine when i was in AC and this spirit was in me when i left AC. and it has helped me to achieve beyond what i thought i could achieve. over [maybe] the course of the past 6 months.. this spirit has died down.. this drive slowly pushed from a gear 5 engine to a gear 3. many things have happened. and yes i am extremely tired.

i was super excited and nervous to see my grand juniors.. nervous was maybe.. due to the fact that i have been distancing myself from the ac community for such a long time.. distancing to avoid sth that hurt me so bad in the past. and i guess in a way i was afraid that i would not be able to clique with my juniors.. maybe not be myself.. or maybe.. was afraid to know the fact that maybe the natalie in AC may not be the same natalie as you see now.

why was i excited..? well.. though i have distanced myself away from ac for so long.. i dearly miss it. deep down inside.. i wished i had been more involved and to stay i touch with the school community. i miss the friends.. the culture.. the spirit.

walking into the gates of school.. i felt a gush of nostalgia. i remember how it was like to walk about feeling proud of the uniform i wore. to look forward to a new day in school with friends close to my heart that never failed to put a smile on my face.

walking into the classroom with my juniors noisy rattlings.. it brought back even more memories. i remembered joses and jianwei's funny comments and laughter that would fill the classroom. i remembered how the classroom would be usually filled with sweet smelling deodorant smell from the girls.. and yes.. mr. lynn's presence. wat would aa1 be without mr. lynn.

i walked in.. and actually treated them as if they were my classmates. and the surprising thing was my juniors were open and friendly about it. it just felt as if we immediately connected. and it felt as if they had known me before and that we have known each other for a really long time. their spontaneous response was encouraging and motivating. something i miss ALOT.. throughout my interview with them.. there was no sense of discomfort. no nervousness involved at all. it was as if it was a casual chit chat session getting their response to certain issues.

this visit to AC has energized me and restored me in a way. now i see where my passion to achieve and the drive to go beyond what is expected of me comes from. it is the culture that i have went through in AC. everything was team effort. we were confident and open to new friends. we were all driven to achieve. passionate about what we committed ourselves to do. and indeed 'our hearts, our hopes, our aims are [indeed] one'. this is the AC culture.

i am definitely feeling better and more motivated as well. remembering all these has helped me think back and see the person i was before. the happy and ambitious natalie. who was care-free and driven at the same time. i am charged and yes definitely feeling much better.

The Best is Yet to Be.

sUnsHiNe sMileZ ~nat~

Friday, September 01, 2006

wow.. its been ages since i last posted on this blog.. haha..

finally starting to have time to breathe and write again. well well.. many things happened throughout this past month that i have not posted.. you name it.. politics.. workload. blah blah. the list goes on.

was busy with my JCRC elections.just ended recently. haha. now i have been elected as the incoming president for my hall. it is one role that i do not take it lightly. leading the next comm is seriously going to test me on my perseverance, determination, maturity and ability to handle things under stress.. suddenly after being elected.. seems to me that everything i do is being monitored. being watched. suddenly i have become a "public figure" overnight. not that i mind. but it can get a little tiring. but i guess i can count on the support of my many good friends in hall. and also my best friends outside of hall.. thanks vin for talking to me. thanks to nathanel as well.. shivali.. and many others. thanks to andy.. christopher.. sally.. zinc.. for always being there to support me throughout this period. was glad that i had you guys to confide in.

will be super busy from now onwards.. haha. but it is a learning process.. will definitely strive to do my best. and i pray that i will become a better person out of this. =)

gonna post up photos.. haha.. fun times we had at hall dnd bash.. hehe. and fun time window shopping with ade and chris. =)

sUnsHiNe sMileZ ~nat~

Friday, July 28, 2006

me and brother joses! =)

the girls and the guy..

gonna miss you girl..

me and june!

my ac diet partner aimee and i..

the girls i can't live without. besties for life. =)

me and alibaba!

me and lichen!

smile!!!!

haha.. my entertaining sisters during tennis

finally a good shot!

me and da jie!

i see you guys are drawing the line..

me and the ever cheerful shivs!

looks like shivs super serious about shopping for her hostel room!

nat being the handy man

relaxing after walking for such a long time

camping and shopping!

the sisterhood!

me and shivs

having fun at JP

melf- geog club president, lich-chairperson, me-err.. councillor! and vin-geog rep

me and melf!

AC peepz @ Melf's party!

bestie vinitha! =)

me and lichen!! looking good girl! =)

Happy Birthday Melf! =)

sUnsHiNe sMileZ ~nat~

met up with nat and shiv for tennis today.. haha. great work out guys. and definitely.. seeing you guys made me feel much better and more comforted. dont worry too much k? i should be fine.. =) tennis was so so fun lah.. shiv hit the balls outside the net twice. haha. hilarious. =) home run man girl. we should do this more often!

met up with my ac classmates for halim's farewell party. =) was great to see all of you. miss you guys loads. haha. all those fun times we shared in the north lodges. memories that i will never forget. =) miss my darling baba sisters. haiz. great talking to you guys. haha. today's shopping session was seriously too fast and too furious. we need to go out one day and take it slow k? haha. and enjoy the art of shopping. you guys never fail to brighten up my day with your cheerful smiles. thanks loads. =)

and yes to my brother joses.. haha. great to have that serious talk with you man.. haha. great to find someone that has the same frequency as me with regards to certain issues. =) and yes thanks for flattering me about my drive and all. and more so making me feel so sooo happy by complimenting my dress sense. haha. first time sial. but seriously thanks. the talk was seriously reassuring and comforting. =) next time run at ntu must tell me lah. then go keep fit together. whahha.

haiz. i must say friends to me are super important. they are seriously my source of strength and pillar of support. i think i have said this many times. and i mean it from the bottom of my heart. and i am so blessed and thankful that the high almighty person up there has blessed me with so many good friends to support me. and meeting great people. really.. for friends i would do anything within my capacity to help them out. u dunno how grateful i am to have you guys.. the baba sisterhood.. da jie.. shiv.. laona zinc christine chris and ade.. and many many others....... its impossible to name all of you.. but thanks so much for always being there when i needed a listening ear and when i was at my darkest moments. thanks.

no words can fully measure and express how grateful i am to have you guys in my life. but really thanks. you guys rock on! =)

right now using mummys comp to write this entry. will upload the photos asap! hehe. alright.. super sleepy already.. signing off.

sUnsHiNe sMileZ ~nat~

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

just came back home..

its been such an eventful day. met up with yong kuan and mark.. well mark for a short while. good to see him though.. =) hehe. and yes i have been conveniently forgotten! haha.. had a good chat with yong kuan. =) good to meet up and talk about things.. =)

really IPhO has changed me quite a bit. it has made me a better person in many ways and it was my form of training ground for the presidency term.

has a surprise call from ed! haha. man.. am really happy to hear from you. seriously.. =) havent heard from you in the longest time. haha. how long has it been? a month? haha. but yeah. call me if ya feel like talking and stuff k? can meet up for meals too lah considering how near your camp is to my campus even though it takes 3 freaking buses to come over to my hall. but it was worth it right? haha.. good company and bundung! haha. ;)

been doing alot of reflecting and thinking. about what has just passed. the future. my goals. my vision for the JCRC. have been pretty occupied with my thoughts.

it has been pretty complicated for me. many things have happened. and i am slightly troubled. but everything under control. IPhO wonders it has done to a confused girl who wasnt sure of the direction she was headed to. suddenly a revelation. now being the changed person that i am, i will put my foot down and not let things screw up. i need my life back in order. to stand strong as a person so as to lead my fellow members and residents. thinking through i realise that being a president means to be the role model for the hall. i need to get things right and prioritize things now.

will be reflecting alot from now to the sch term. getting things in order. need to prioritize. yup. thanks ed for talking things through with me this evening. it was a relieve. really. thank you. =)

sUnsHiNe sMileZ ~nat~