Sunday, September 19, 2004
hello!!
haha.. well.. today has been pretty tiring.. went for consultation from 9-4pm haha.. okie.. i know it sounds crazy.. haha.. yeah.. but i had fun.. together with toshi.. melvin.. waiyin.. see min.. haha.. and of course MR LYNN!! haha.. well. stressed lahz.. didnt do too well for my exams.. haiz.. haha.. gotta buck up manz!!! we can do it!!! =) went out with my half sister jas!!! haha.. had a good talk with her lahz.. very pleasant evening.. slved alot of things.. miss spending time with her manz. =) oh wellz.. haha.. im so excited for prom!!! ah!!.. jas and i cant stop talking about it.. oh wellz.. =) gotta aim to lose weight.. and look good that night.. =) hehe.. okok.. *ambitious* haha. going to study with jas, ed and toshi tmr!!!! yay! haha.. may be playing tennis too!!! hehe. exciting.. haha.. alright.. going to sleep nowz.. haha.. =)
God Bless!!!!! signing out....
sUnsHiNe sMileZ ~nat~
Love Will Keep Us Alive
I was standing All alone against the world outside
You were searching
For a place to hide
Lost and lonely
Now you've given me the will to survive
When we're hungry...love will keep us alive
Don't you worry
Sometimes you've just gotta let it ride
The world is changing
Right before your eyes
Now I've found you
There's no more emptiness inside
When we're hungry...love will keep us alive
I would die for you
Climb the highest mountain
Baby, there's nothing I wouldn't do
I was standing
All alone against the world outside
You were searching
For a place to hide
Lost and lonely
Now you've given me the will to survive
When we're hungry...love will keep us alive
When we're hungry...love will keep us alive
When we're hungry...love will keep us alive
sUnsHiNe sMileZ ~nat~
Thursday, September 16, 2004
hello again...
haiz.. well, once again... feeling that sense of void and pain.. aiyoh.. dont know why lahz.. i mean.. okie.. well, i kinda told someone abou my decision about things.. and... i dunno.. its sth pretty tragic.. and i dunno.. haiz.. feeling really miserable.. but i guess it was for the better? im not sure.. but i hope i wouldnt regret it.. need my life back.. i mean.. my former carefree self.. i just feel so uptight about a certain issue.. and i kinda "left" it unattended.. or on hold for sometime.. hoping to get over the matter... haiz.. i dunno.. it hurts.. but no pain no gain right?? maybe that certain sth may turn out to be really beautiful in the end.. like how all things are made beautiful in His time.. haha.. trying to cheer myself up.. so sorry about my crankiness.. but really?? do things ever reconciile???? or will they just merely be left alone in their solitary worlds? i certainly hope the latter will not happen.. but i guess.. everything IS possible.. just need the right time thats all.. yep.. well, didnt study in school today.. thought i may need a break.. really feel cornered and stress about my relationship.. and my studies... but keep it up!! never give up!! =)
signing out...
sUnsHiNe sMileZ ~nat~
Saturday, September 11, 2004
hello!!!!!
well todae was a really fun day!! heh.. well, went out with edward today.. it was really fun!! haha.. both of us were worried that we might bore each other.. but turns out that we actually had more fun!! =) haha.. well, in the morn.. i had a last min call from jas asking me to go for some council outing (didnt know the details.. so i assumed there wasnt one) oh wellz.. haha.. comtemplated a bit... and ed and i decided to go in the end. =) well.. i guess it wasnt too bad lahz.. ed had fun playing volley ball.. and i had fun walking along the beach with jas.. was afraid that ed would feel left out man!! =) but it went well. well, at least i think it did. haha. we watched the terminal after the outing.. haha! cool show.. though i thought the ending could be slightly more romantic.. haha. but oh well.. unexpected ending lahz.. had a blizzard today.. think its strawberry choc chip blizzard.. its heavenly!! =) haha.. oh wellz.. its a really cool dae lahz!! had alot of fun.. haha. gonna play badminton tmr.. and throwers outing too!! =) wow.. oh wellz.. better start my studying engine soon!! okie.. till tmr! =)
sUnsHiNe sMileZ ~nat~
Friday, September 10, 2004
went to christabel's house today!!! alicia was there too!!
haha! it was really fun!! =) we studied first lahz.. was pretty productive.. did lit and math today! =) and then.. we played all our fav childhood games!! hehe.. like twister.. speed.. haha.. all sorts.. we even talked about what we would do in the future.. haha.. like how we would meet up next time.. or even how often.. haiz.. its really sad to lose contacts with such good friends.. well, obviously!! shouldnt look on the down side of things right?? everything is possible!! haha.. so long as we make the effort manz.. haha! im sure the few of us would be friends for a long time!! (at least we better do!!) it was damn fun.. haha.. we are most probably going to bangkok after the a's lahz!! haha.. yay!! fun fun fun.. =) alrighty.. going to sleep now.. till then.. =)
sUnsHiNe sMileZ ~nat~
hello.. welll havent been writing much.. haha
as usual.. read the gospel again.. gospel of luke.. =) well, kinda made me realise.. that ive been busy picking on the faults made by others.. and overlooked my own..
i guess.. with so much happening.. and whatever that has happened.. haha.. its hard to concentrate on your own faults.. and less focus on God.. well, im guilty of that la.. haiz.. i dunno..
do you believe in signs? i dunno.. sometimes do you feel as though there is this pushing force within you that is telling you what to do..?? but something else is resisting it.. sth like.. the ood u vs the bad you.. haha.. am i making sense?? well, im feeling it now.. and i dunno... there is this side of me.. well, i suppose u can say the "usual" side of me.. telling me to not hold back sth that ive been dreading.. hmm.. sth personal lahz.. shant say it for now.. while.. there is this cynical side of me.. telling me that this thing is not worth it.. by reflecting on Gods words today.. i mean.. ive come to realise that as much as i have thought myself to be the "innocent" party... i cant say for sure that i dont have any faults.. nobody is perfect.. thats a definite.. and i think we should all learn to accept our own faults first before criticising other ppl.. that way.. we can lead a more humble lifestyle.. =)
sUnsHiNe sMileZ ~nat~
Saturday, September 04, 2004
We are judgmental when we make conclusions based on superficial evidences of what we see and hear. The more we dislike or are angry with someone, the more likely we will be judgmental. Suspend your rash judgments and be more Christ-like.
haha.. father philip's advice is always the best! =) always making my thoughts clearer than they ever were before. haiz.. its so fundamental.. and yet.. so powerful.. as mentioned in my previous entries... i have been filled with hate.. and anger.. and i must say.. it was really overwhelming.. so much so.. cried in school yesterdae.. but my friends ( always so supportive and caring..) talked me out of it.. i must learn how to forgive and forget.. that's what fr philip said. he also reminded me that God is always around and that nothing is impossible (in this case, forgiveness) .. these help to reasssure me that i can do all things.. even if they seem impossible right now.. haiz.. right now.. need to spend more time with God.. and forget about all these things that are happening.. need to dwell in his midst and feel His presence once more.. and live life the way he wants me to..
conclusion: be less judgemental.. cause it is not for us to judge.. that's for God to decide.
sUnsHiNe sMileZ ~nat~
At first I was afraid.
I was petrified.
I kept thinking
I could never live
Without you by my side.
But then I spent so many nights
Just thinking how you'd done me wrong.
I grew strong.
I learned how to get along.
And so you're back from outer space.
I just walked in to find you here
Without that look upon your face.
I should have changed my lock.
I would have made you leave your key
If I'd have known for just one second
You'd be back to bother me.
Oh now go.
Walk out the door.
Just turn around now.
You're not welcome anymore.
Weren't you the one
Who tried to break me with desire?
Did you think I'd crumble?
Did you think I'd lay down and die?
Oh not I.
I will survive.
As long as I know how to love
I know I'll be alive.
I've got all my life to live.
I've got all my love to give.
I will survive.
I will survive.
It took all the strength I had
Just not to fall apart.
I'm trying hard to mend
The pieces of my broken heart.
And I spent oh so many nights
Just feeling sorry for myself.
I used to cry.
But now I hold my head up high.
And you'll see me with somebody new.
I'm not that stupid little person
Still in love with you.
And so you thought you'd just drop by,
And you expect me to be free.
But now I'm saving all my lovin'
For someone who's lovin' me.
Oh now go.
Walk out the door.
Just turn around now.
You're not welcome anymore.
Weren't you the one
Who tried to break me with desire?
Did you think I'd crumble?
Did you think I'd lay down and die?
Oh not I.
I will survive.
As long as I know how to love
I know I'll be alive.
I've got all my life to live.
I've got all my love to give.
I will survive.
I will survive.
got this song stuck in my head when i heard dahne from spore idol sing it.. haha damn nice lahz!
sUnsHiNe sMileZ ~nat~
Friday, September 03, 2004
"Failures" are often temporary set-backs and should be viewed as positive experiences of growth in maturity. We should persevere with the assurance that our real strength and hope comes from God who cares for us in all situations.
sUnsHiNe sMileZ ~nat~
Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what's withinI've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you
Some people search for a fountain
Promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love them
And in a world on a silver platter
And wondering what it means
No one to share, no one who truly cares for me
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you
If I ain't got you with me baby
Nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby
.... this song.. i dunno.. although its a bit sappy.. but still.. it is something i can relate to la i suppose.. haiz.. but i dunno.. gotta knock out of it.. its a beautiful song.. so filled with meaning... some people might think its stupid.. but is it really that stupid to like someone that much?? some people may not know this idea loving somebody.. so much so.. that this person is someone u treasure and nothing else matters.. some people might think its idealistic.. majority will think its stupid.. but i dont think so.. well, let's just say that.. losing someone you gave so much to.. hurts.. and hurts even more when you think you're starting to hate this person for having to leave you in a shit hole.. but i guess thats life.. haiz... i dunno.. hating somebody is just not me.. and it hurts more when im hating the very person whom i really wanna treasure. haiz.. is that the only way to get over the matter?? i hope not.. but maybe it is...
sUnsHiNe sMileZ ~nat~
Thursday, September 02, 2004
hey!
hope you don't mind me posting here!
but haha i always do this
it's like a tradition i follow
whenever i do a person's template.
anyway
hey sis! (:
haven't seen you in a while!
i know alot's been happening.
and really sympathise with you.
but you're NEVER alone yes?
cos i'm here for you always!
that's what sisters are for after all! (:
and whenever you need another new template
call my name and i'll come running! -sings.
haha
so yeah.
when ur sick of this template
just tell me
for i will change it for the better!
lalala
i love making them! (:
so fun and nice to make! hehe!
ok
i shall go have dinner now.
blog here always ok?
love you lots nat!
-hugs.
/ sammy
sUnsHiNe sMileZ ~nat~
