Monday, September 18, 2006
yes there are cock ups here and there.. but lets not get affected by the little nitty gritty things that might affect the vision and goals that you have set for yourself. there are many things to do. many goals to achieve. many ups and definitely many downs.
but looking at all these. what is the purpose? why did you get into the things you have gotten into? why are all these cock ups happening? why why why?
there is definitely a purpose in all the things that you do. and this could be a calling. to be strong and stay firm to what you believe in, and make you into a better person. learn from the mistakes made. and improve on it. all these cock ups are here to make you stronger to make you tougher in every sense of the word. politics was never sth that you wanted to get involved in. but think about it. it could be a stepping stone for you to achieve sth greater. it is to help you get tougher to face the real world. the world that is dark and nasty. not the fairy tale that you have lived in for the past 20 years of your life. that is a fantasy and a blessing.
things you do may benefit some and setback some. but whatever it is, it is for the greater good. people may support you and some may not. but be strong and keep your conscience clear. know what you are doing. and forecast its implications. weigh the costs and benefits. and do it. decisions made. mistakes made. consequences arise. live with it. dont be a coward. face up to it.
many things to achieve.
studies is that you need to excel in. you have failed your parents not too long ago. but this is your only chance to prove them wrong and prove to the whole family that you can live up to their expectations or be even better. you have got what it takes. pick yourself up and go. dont be 'idiotically' lazy. it is just an excuse. mind over matter that's what you have learnt. if you keep telling yourself that you are tired you will be tired and you WILL be a LOSER. so buck up, will you?
your position in this committee is to assist the committee to soar to greater heights. there have been many cock ups. and there will be many more to come. stay strong and even out these differences. you need to and you have to. you need to keep firm to the vision and what has been laid down by many past presidents. to come up with something new and refreshing is your goal. and to unite this jcrc as one. even out the cliques. unite them as one. that is YOUR job.
times may be difficult and tiring for you now. but it is just a phase. it will pass. you need to stay strong. keep firm. constantly pray for the people around you to be strong as well. push yourself beyond your limits. you will never know what you will achieve.
you can do it. i know you can. you DEFINITELY can.
attacking the problems with enthusiasm.
The Best is Yet to Be.
sUnsHiNe sMileZ ~nat~
Thursday, September 14, 2006
just came back from AC.. after interviewing or rather having a chit chat session with my grand junior class. man.. they are one great bunch of people. and seeing them so cheerful and carefree brings back many memories..
seeing my grand juniors.. has rejuvenated me in many ways in a short period of time. the spirit and drive i saw in them were the same as mine when i was in AC and this spirit was in me when i left AC. and it has helped me to achieve beyond what i thought i could achieve. over [maybe] the course of the past 6 months.. this spirit has died down.. this drive slowly pushed from a gear 5 engine to a gear 3. many things have happened. and yes i am extremely tired.
i was super excited and nervous to see my grand juniors.. nervous was maybe.. due to the fact that i have been distancing myself from the ac community for such a long time.. distancing to avoid sth that hurt me so bad in the past. and i guess in a way i was afraid that i would not be able to clique with my juniors.. maybe not be myself.. or maybe.. was afraid to know the fact that maybe the natalie in AC may not be the same natalie as you see now.
why was i excited..? well.. though i have distanced myself away from ac for so long.. i dearly miss it. deep down inside.. i wished i had been more involved and to stay i touch with the school community. i miss the friends.. the culture.. the spirit.
walking into the gates of school.. i felt a gush of nostalgia. i remember how it was like to walk about feeling proud of the uniform i wore. to look forward to a new day in school with friends close to my heart that never failed to put a smile on my face.
walking into the classroom with my juniors noisy rattlings.. it brought back even more memories. i remembered joses and jianwei's funny comments and laughter that would fill the classroom. i remembered how the classroom would be usually filled with sweet smelling deodorant smell from the girls.. and yes.. mr. lynn's presence. wat would aa1 be without mr. lynn.
i walked in.. and actually treated them as if they were my classmates. and the surprising thing was my juniors were open and friendly about it. it just felt as if we immediately connected. and it felt as if they had known me before and that we have known each other for a really long time. their spontaneous response was encouraging and motivating. something i miss ALOT.. throughout my interview with them.. there was no sense of discomfort. no nervousness involved at all. it was as if it was a casual chit chat session getting their response to certain issues.
this visit to AC has energized me and restored me in a way. now i see where my passion to achieve and the drive to go beyond what is expected of me comes from. it is the culture that i have went through in AC. everything was team effort. we were confident and open to new friends. we were all driven to achieve. passionate about what we committed ourselves to do. and indeed 'our hearts, our hopes, our aims are [indeed] one'. this is the AC culture.
i am definitely feeling better and more motivated as well. remembering all these has helped me think back and see the person i was before. the happy and ambitious natalie. who was care-free and driven at the same time. i am charged and yes definitely feeling much better.
The Best is Yet to Be.
sUnsHiNe sMileZ ~nat~
Friday, September 01, 2006
finally starting to have time to breathe and write again. well well.. many things happened throughout this past month that i have not posted.. you name it.. politics.. workload. blah blah. the list goes on.
was busy with my JCRC elections.just ended recently. haha. now i have been elected as the incoming president for my hall. it is one role that i do not take it lightly. leading the next comm is seriously going to test me on my perseverance, determination, maturity and ability to handle things under stress.. suddenly after being elected.. seems to me that everything i do is being monitored. being watched. suddenly i have become a "public figure" overnight. not that i mind. but it can get a little tiring. but i guess i can count on the support of my many good friends in hall. and also my best friends outside of hall.. thanks vin for talking to me. thanks to nathanel as well.. shivali.. and many others. thanks to andy.. christopher.. sally.. zinc.. for always being there to support me throughout this period. was glad that i had you guys to confide in.
will be super busy from now onwards.. haha. but it is a learning process.. will definitely strive to do my best. and i pray that i will become a better person out of this. =)
gonna post up photos.. haha.. fun times we had at hall dnd bash.. hehe. and fun time window shopping with ade and chris. =)
sUnsHiNe sMileZ ~nat~